I've been thinking about health and body image for a while. Savannah and I both have struggled with our weight most of our lives. I don't ever remember a time being content with the way my body looks. I know beyond of shadow of doubt that I have to accept myself and my body no matter what it looks like. I know that God designed me perfectly and that He thinks I'm beautiful. However, the fact is that I have been doing everything I can to be healthy. I know that I must treat my body like a temple of the Lord and drinking Diet Coke and processed foods doesn't really glorify God.
I think women can use the "I'm choosing to love my body at any shape" thought process as a crutch and a justification for an unhealthy lifestyle. Yes, you have to accept yourself but that doesn't mean it's ok to be overweight and unhealthy. On the flip side, there are people who work out obsessively and over think every morsel of food they put into their mouths. In both cases, there isn't balance and self-worship is happening.
So somewhere between the two is balance and God. I've never been able to find that balance. I know the problem is that I have never consistently turned this problem over to God. I'll pray about it for a period of time, but then I stop. This has been a life long problem, so I can't expect that everything will improve after praying for two weeks. I just want to see food as nourishment for my body and to be able to enjoy food but not worship it. I've been fighting with food my whole life and I'm tired of it.
Then there is exercising. For me, I know I need to change my attitude towards exercising. Instead of focusing on having a body that will look good in a bikini, I need to focus on being healthy no matter what my body looks like. I'm not sure that spending hours in the gym to have a ripped body makes you more healthy than someone who is simply active. I really don't know the answer to that.
Whether it's food or exercising, worship has to be the focus no matter what. Everything I do must be an act of worship and my every breath should aim to glorify God. Whew. That's easier said than done. However, with God as my focus, everything else doesn't seem to matter as much. But I can't let my guard down and I have to pick up that cross everyday.