The other day someone asked me, "When you wake up in the morning, what is the one thing you want to do, every day?" And almost immediately my response was "make something." I pondered that question for a few minutes but then I realized that that was actually the right answer for me. That's what I love to do- make, design, create. And I do as much of that as I can. If I have a moment of free time, I make something. Not because I have to, but because that is genuinely what I desire to do. If any of you know my personally, you are probably thinking, "Duh Savannah! This is old news." But let me explain.
Ever since I have been able to have a job, I have had one. I couldn't wait to have a job when I was 15. And since then, I've worked numerous jobs. I worked full-time, I worked part-time. I worked for big companies and small companies. I worked for companies I believed in and companies that I can't believe I supported. I worked for people that loved their employees and for people who made me question the good in this world. My point is, I've worked a lot of jobs. And in all of these jobs, no matter how fun or terrible, I always felt no purpose. So when I was bored with one job, I'd move on to something else hoping to find something that would fit better. Something that would feel right. And it wasn't until very recently that I realized that all these years I have been searching and searching for something that I would never find. You see, I had been searching for a job that would give me purpose, instead of praying for what I am purposed for. I was searching for meaning instead of seeking what I was meant for.
I know I like to make things, that is a given. But, it wasn't until I heard myself answer this question, that I realized, making things is a real thing. God is THE Creator, THE Maker. If I am seeking to be like God, why wouldn't I make things? Now here I am, quarter-life crisis style, numerous failed job interviews later and thinking... how long has God been trying to tell me exactly what I already knew? How long have I been focused on my circumstances so much that I forgot the One who has been right by my side all along? God didn't bless me with a desire to be creative just so I could answer phones or fold t-shirts all day. He gave me that desire so that I would do it and rejoice!
After lots of prayer, and failure, I have always come back to the same place. God doesn't have me working a full-time job with benefits because He wants me to create. And He has promised to take care of the rest. I can get all caught up in the fact that I don't have insurance or that I won't know exactly how much money I will be making, or if I'll be able to buy groceries this week, much less keep the blog going. But it has very recently been clarified that I am to trust Him on this one.
So, in the past few weeks, I have been in straight creation mode. My love for making things is fired up once again and it just feels so right. I started making lots of kimonos and jewelry, I put them in the Etsy Shop and already, people are buying stuff. A work of the Lord? hmm... I decided to start a crowd fund. You can put some things together from this post and know that I am in no financial situation to start a business. But I figured, if I could just raise $750, I could purchase all the fabric and supplies I would need to get the shop started properly. The goal is for the Etsy shop to be a main source of income for me and I totally believe that is possible, even if it isn't where I am right now.
If you'd like to donate to supply the Etsy Shop you can here- CROWDTILT.
If you'd like to view the Etsy shop you can here- ETSY SHOP.
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