finding humility

I struggle with pride/lack of humility. There. I said it. And not to call you out, but you probably struggle with pride too. The thing about pride is that it's at the root of all sin. Every time we sin, we are telling God that we know better than him. How preposterous, right?! But we all do it. We may not have that conscious thought, but it's there somewhere.

Often when people think of someone being prideful, they think of someone who is self-promoting and thinks their poo don't stank. But pride carries itself in many different forms. For example: not being able to admit when you are wrong, not accepting help or not asking for help, not forgiving, not being teachable, not accepting constructive criticism, feeling entitled, having the attitude of "my way or the highway", being indifferent, etc.
I could go on, but you get the point. I personally struggle with admitting I'm wrong. You can ask Savannah about that one. Recently, I've had two incidences where I blew it big time and my pride got me in big trouble. The first incident involved a friend. Basically, I flew off the handle about something. I said things I wish I could take back. I could lay out the whole story for you and you'd probably say that you understand why I got so mad. However, God reminded me almost instantly that nothing anyone says or does gives me justification to act like a jerk. Nothing. I must turn the other cheek. So, I apologized for my behavior. The second time my pride reared its ugly head was last night. I'm not gonna bore you with the details but I lost my cool. We were having dinner with a party of 30 people at a restaurant, and we had the worst service I've ever had in my life. Again, see what I said above. There is never ever and excuse for being rude. Be encouraged that if you've also blown it, you have a great opportunity to practice humility. The more quickly you apologize the better.
So where do we go from here? Well, you know I'm going to tell you to pray about it. We have to ask God for a heart of humility, and ask Him to show you when you are being prideful. I have to be honest, this is painful but I think being humble becomes easier over time. Also, Jesus gives us plenty examples of humility in the Bible.  We must continually seek humility because this world will tell us we deserve anything we could want. God will give you plenty of opportunities to exercise humility, so don't beat yourself up. Do better next time.
-Casey <3

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